sarahreesbrennan's #Untold (The Lynburn Legacy #2)
I think that losing the trust you had in the person you loved the most is heartcrushing.
Poor Jon :(
This was one of those times I was saved by my critique partners. A critique partner was like ‘I cannot forgive Claire’ and made me think about what Claire had done differently.
There are people who tell children nothing but the truth, and that is beautiful and admirable, but I admit I lie to little kids all the time and feel very little guilt about it—you want to keep them safe and happy and they’re still learning to respond to reason and logic.
Lies I have recently told children: ‘Don’t touch that stove, it’s hot’ … ‘NONONO don’t touch that stove your head will fall off!’ and ‘I don’t know any more songs to sing you.’ (Translation: I know many songs that are inappropriately sexual and/or full of swears.) and ‘Don’t get in the water you don’t know how to swim.’ (Child exhibits unjustified confidence in their swimming abilities.) ‘Don’t get in the water, there are SHARKS with LASERS on their heads.’ Also lies that just come out of my mouth rather than being For Their Own Good, like ‘You’re a rusalka!’ ‘You make it snow with your mind’ and ‘If you put on those gold shoes you will be magically made to dance.’
So it made sense to me, that a parent would lie to a child about something bad done to her when she was unborn and then a baby—I’ve seen parents lie to their children in this way, because Mama Knows Best. Even when a mama is frightened or unsure or guilty, she might feel like she has to know best.
I knew that Claire had done a bad thing to Kami, but I wasn’t thinking about the fact that she’d done an almost unforgivable thing to Jon: I was still thinking of it as simply a bad thing.
But with a partner, you definitely can’t decide that you know best, because a partnership needs to be about equality from the first, and honesty is a necessary foundation on which to build a life together.
I sympathise with Claire, because hiding things from a partner at first happens, and Claire and Jon got together and she fell into this pattern of behaviour when they were both really young. I can see how someone might feel locked into their own web of deceit, with no way to escape it, and telling themselves it’s going to be fine. But Jon’s right, too: years of someone lying to you means a tower of deceit: it means your foundations are built on quicksand.
With the Glass family, I wanted to write about parents who were neither absent (due to death or emotional/physical distance) nor evil, but having parents present and involved in a fantasy novel means that parents are characters: means that you have flawed people in heightened situations of life or death, people who have responsibilities and choices sometimes taking on too much or making the wrong choice.
The revelation of a secret world of magic means people have been hiding a secret world of magic from you—and if they’re people close to you, then you have every right to be angry.
And I wanted to explore that. Even though it means Kami’s warm, loving, lovely family has now been damaged… maybe beyond repair. We shall see.